So apparently, the 10 days they give me for modified work...
INCLUDE CHRISTMAS SHUTDOWN.
So January 4th, instead of going back to work at Honda, I have to go work...somewhere else.
Probably in an office. An Adecco office.
Doing...what? I have no idea. Anything that requires usage of my hands/arms is a no-no. So...I can't do...what. Paperwork. Filing. Typing. Coffee-getting. Answering phones. Very interesting.
Oh, plus I have to go back to working day shift. I'll get an hour lunch? Starbucks is right next door. (I've never been to one before.) I have to take the freeway to work again. (/SOB)
( More information about this...splendid development in the life of the Mannadon. )Speaking of Shannon-- he wants to get together with me, but a lot of things we could do are otherwise ruined by my teeth. Like seeing lights. Nobody has once ever thought that being outside could hurt my teeth.
Never.
Not even my parents have thought of that.
But Shannon did.
I don't think I love him. Not yet. Maybe that will come in time. He's so thoughtful that I can't help but like him.
I want to produce little!Shannons. I want to love him.
I'm afraid that my negativity is going to ruin things with him, though. I don't really want to do anything. I like not doing things. It's routine for me. Going out and doing something "fun" is really just more stress on my plate. Eating out is stress. Being in public is stress. There is very little I enjoy doing outside of the home. And lately, with all the stress that's already piled on me, I can't deal with a whole lot more.
Bah. On one hand, I really want us to move forward in our "relationship". On the other, I'm terrified that we will. Qué sera sera?